i think it's very normal that some things and people remind you of different things since there is lots of going on in your mind. you should do whatever u feel like to do. u dont need to turn your music up to escape from the situation u are in and if u want to live the moment , do not hesitate to do so. i believe time will show us our ways. i hope one day we will be smoking pots together in amsterdam until we will be lost in the loud. when our brains work to much, there is nothing concrete to be left, but i like it.it is like a movie that i write,act direct and watch all by myself..just like you..